i’m scared of dying.
i have more to do in this world.
why do i crave the same poison
i’ve been recovering from?
his grip tightens as i start
to overcome, to start anew,
to lose control of what he once knew.
is this man in my mind?
i thought i’d left behind
the fear and the guilt
that kept you near.
but who is it? what does it all mean?
it’s a part that strips me of my humanity
to operate like a learning machine.
what is terrifying about the present?
are there things in my life that i’ve
grown to resent?
resisting change yet proclaiming my
lament.
Kailani is an amateur writer. She writes for the love of writing. It is her sincerest form of expression—a way to put her wide-ranging ideas and life experiences into something cohesive. As a clinical therapist, she helps others find, listen to, and use their voice. And her writing is her voice. The world as she experiences it is her inspiration, and her love of personal flair fuels her style. She doesn’t think she’s to write the next great American novel, but she’s to write something. Stay curious.
Featured image by Babi.
